The light pouring past the front window shines along the hall through the doorway in a manner which suggests whatever’s on the other side is much larger and taller than I know it to be.

    Seasons change and people come into their own and I’m looking for what I deserve and reaching for it but is it here

(?/,)

and what exactly am I searching for on that three block commute down Glen Iris (looking down at my feet as I walk, listening to Vegas like I did) and could it possibly be the projected fortune of only nostalgia can convince you of (what am I trying to convince you of?)
(NO)


(the kingdom of god is at hand!)

and yet



I BELIEVE! I BELIEVE! I BELIEVE! I BELIEVE! I BELIEVE! I BELIEVE!



(It’s just not enough over time.)

    My head hurts now trying to absorb, no

(?/,)

   comprehend a three-dimensional object in a way two-dimensional beings simply never will.

    I’ve worn your collar and I remember what choices I made, and the pain it caused, all at once being very clearly able to connect the dots while also feeling acted upon by that third dimension in a way unknowable.


   But we can try! I’m no fool for believing. What I’m searching for exists and it can be mine.