I sit next to your son,
Who sits next to your daughter,
Who cries at the priests’ words.
Fast talking Spanish and occasional
mumblings of “amen” are barely registered.
All I can understand is my mother’s sobs and wheezes.
Cars whizz by and
drown out the priest and my mother.
The Floridian sun shines brilliant and hot.
My mother clutches her brother’s knee.
A tear trickles down his cheek
underneath his sunglasses.
He stares forward, deep in thought and grief.
I notice
my cousin doesn’t know Spanish either.
They gave each of us a yellow rose.
Soft and thornless.
We lay each one down on your casket.
I forcibly grab its stem
between my thumb and forefinger
before I give it back to you.