Was it stupid to think I would end up with you?
Or maybe selfish?
But you never knew
I should have told you and now I’m second guessing
But it would be too cruel, and I can’t keep messing
With your head and your heart
I won’t curse you from the start
I couldn’t admit it to myself
I just wanted to hide you away on my shelf
For safe keeping
You’d always be there
This wouldn’t be dreaming
And I clung to the potential you had
To make me feel some sort of mad
Love it isn’t wise, in fact it’s torture in disguise
I don’t want you
I don’t want you
I don’t want you
To bring me some vague feeling of affection
Your affirming makes it difficult for rejection
But it’s not love I feel
And how dare I steal?
I built it up in my head
These thoughts of you and me will never be what’s best
In unison
What we could be
I don’t want it
I don’t want it
I don’t want you
And now, life has become more gray